What Happened In 2020, Stays….
Not in 2020, I would say. Not only for the most obvious reasons, like the pandemic or the presidential election, but also in my personal life. I have found growth, where I did not see I need for some. Build on my self-love, that was lost and found (much stronger than before!.); and also found dreams I did not realize existed…, so all I can think is, What In The 2021!!
Many people would love to bury 2020 in an unmarked grave and banish it from their minds. I know this because I could have been one of them. It was one of the worst years I can remember, because to me, it was filled with uncertainly and madness. It was also, for me, a great time to self reflect and set goals.
Although I feel like 2020 followed us into the new year, I am equally sure we can kick it back to submission, using the love and light we all have within us. This year carries the repercussions of the year before, but we are naturally adaptable beings, and resilience resides in us all.
So What In The 2020! did you uncover?
It Is Here At Last
Now that 2020 is out the way, I can not wait to get things rolling in the new year. Things are slowly coming together and 2021 will be the year for ME. All of last year, I have learned MORE lessons, given myself closure and moved on from things that I have ignored or just did not want to deal with. I had to enforce boundaries, show patience in areas I had none in and show love to those who shown me nothing and yet, I still thrived and I hope that my readers thrive with me.
So within this article, I will be discussing some things I have discovered about myself and how I was able to move forward with positivity and light.
I can not stress the fact that being home bound is a LOT harder than anyone makes it look. Especially when even going to the park is dangerous and walking the street makes me wary. One of my boys are now against the outside world and the other deals with chronic cabin fever :)! I also know ALL episodes from certain shows, so yeah, there is that!
As much as I hope that this can be overcome quickly, I did appreciate the things I have learned because of quarantining. I have gained a better look at what teachers go through for our little ones, I have learned how to be more patient with my sons. I have never realized staying cooped up in one space for an extended amount of time can make me feel distant and unimportant in the lives of others.
So the best part of this is, I had learned to appreciate and love myself so much more because I was forced to stay and deal with things I could not hide myself from anymore. I can be my own GREATEST liar, but I am sure that goes for many people too, for the mind is the most powerful of tools.
There used to be a time when I was sure, my family was forever torn. Sibling did not talk to one another, we did not talk to cousins, etc. 2020 did what time failed to do, unite those who were too stubborn to make the first move. Last year felt like the universes first move on me.
I learned that no matter what, in the darkest hour I have more people that have my back then I have ever realized. So in practicing that we are all perfectly imperfect, I needed to apply it fully and with every one around me, especially those in me and my sons orbit. I have gained closure with this part of my life and now my shoulders ache less.
Sometimes People Come Into My Life….
That are meant to aspire and some who are meant to deliver lessons. Some people have been in my life for years as one thing and ended on others. I have experienced heartbreak so deep and bleak, I had to take a break emotionally for a little. Had to pressed factory reset on some things and figure out where I went wrong.
And in 2020, a lot of people, suddenly found a lot more time on their hands or like me, felt the uncertainty of our world and it became a driving force of determination. I have seen some peoples’ true colors and intentions but I also am seeing my own.
I learned to hold my boundaries proudly and in doing so, finding those who do not respect me enough, to let me. I have had to cut myself out on some peoples’ life because the toxicity usually destroyed me and molded me to become someone I myself could not stand.
I remember last year having a very important conversation with myself other than making sure I was okay. I asked, ‘Who do I want to be?’, in which I replied, ‘a mother who wants to be a stable fixture in their children life and with that, needs to figure out how to succeed.’
So I sat on that for a minute and then asked, ‘ What makes me happy?’ and with that I paused and really thought about it. I thought that the most AMAZING feeling, wa s making people feel good about themselves. When they under value their abilities, or any negative feelings, I always try to brighten and give love to another person.
That makes me happy and that is my dream.
So learned and I began to slowly build a website and writing content so that I can live my dreams and I started…in 2020.
So Long 2020, And Welcome 2021
Using tools I have gathered throughout the last couple of years, especially last year, I believe I am better prepared and ready for what is to come. Even though this year is looking to be another tough one, if there is anything to take from 2020, is that human beings are strong and together we can spread our light and love and we can overcome what ever may come our way.
So welcome 2021, it is a pleasure to officially meet you.
Keep BEING AMAZING